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MORE MUSINGS
anticipation
moans keep escaping with my breath
tension/attention on your body—leaking out
sourced from the base of my throat
near my chest/upper ribs
clavicle
vibrating on the back of my tongue
only it’s my other
mouth
that wants you bad
(August 7, 2026)
For You
I bought a pint of ice cream this week
Usually, I only have ice cream in the house when I am expecting you
For you, I fill the house with treats
So we don’t have to leave
Our cravings in each other’s company
Usually, we eat it together
Two spoons sticking out of the pint
Curled up on the couch
Together
Usually, we finish it
Together
Or come really close
Now, I am eating the ice cream—a layer at a time—a little every day
I am eating the ice cream standing by the fridge
Eating over the counter
This keeps you close
(March 5, 2026)
my nerve endings as beginnings
stop start play non sequiturs indulgences sparks time traveling shapeshifting
clarity intentional naivety real lingering juicy sharp dripping nonjudgmental exploratory feeling
connecting taking care of oneself myself
community care projecting interconnectivity of all with the all universe beings the roots of all (creation/past/present/future/living/transitioned/seeds/composting)
tasting feeling sensing the fine hairs on my body my nerve endings as beginnings the muscles
behind my breathing skin
what pushes and pulls involuntary reactions in safe spaces/places in me from connection
honesty tenderness grace my needs finding your needs finding universe needs energy
(free write, October 29, 2025)
Wanting
grit against my skin
residue of lunch
on my gums
slippery tongue
surfaces of my body
wanting to be
paid attention to
I choose to press
into my weight
(September 13, 2025)
Inside me
My taste buds have desire, propulsion in fact
I swallow from my pussy/cunt/vulva/taint to my belly
Inside
Me
My tonsils drag down my throat. Brush my butthole
(September 12, 2025)
Queerness
Mess
Messy self
Full self
Helpful being, in self
Floating in mess
Feeling my way
Having sex
Feeling my way, with you
Finding myself, in me
Having fun
Healing self
Feeling fun
Being with you as my Full self
To be in you
To be with you
To be in me
To be with me
(June 16, 2024)
Jetlagged Ovaries
Jetlag has my ovaries less than enthused.
Usually imagining you pulling me in from behind would get their attention.
Typically, any stimulation I visualize would make them literally and instantly warm & fuzzy, churning out increased sensations for the sensory loop to keep going. Heat and information signaling back & forth.
A rocking to push me into deeper fantasy. Your hands, your grip, your pulse.
But right now, my ovaries are just a slight glow, not happy about the time difference and distance to what would normally be fuel for my thoughts.
(October 21, 2021)
Your cock
I said “nice cock!” with a flirty voice as she climbed back into the bed with the strap-on in place. Immediately she corrected me “this is a dildo. If you want cock, you have the wrong person.”
I had been actively imagining the base of the dildo butt up against the tip of her clit and the silicone shaft as an extension of her flesh, but she didn’t.
I knew she had mad skills. However her imagination wouldn’t run imaginary blood into the tip of that cock for me.
(October 21, 2021)
Horny (waking up with a boner)
early morning
grow restless of lying on my back and flip on my front.
I notice the heat build up between me and the mattress,
from my weight on the bed
the pressure on my chest and nipples
the soft insistence of the sheets
blankets forming around my shape
gravity as their hands
noticing how my ass curves down
a gap between my thighs
without moving a muscle
my body is stirring
my toes feel an anticipation simply
lying side by side of one another
an invitation is set.
(May 16, 2021)
